You guys know what life has been like for me over the last year. With dad’s death in September and then loosing Tammy in March, I’ve had a hell of a ride. Not a day goes by that I’m not having some sort of emotional moment. But through all of this I’ve learned a lot about myself and about the life I’ve created for myself. This weekend I think I learned the most important lesson so far.
Life is much to fragile to live it with black spots on your soul.
Let me explain.
When Tammy and I first met I was in a 14 year relationship with someone else. We were having many problems and the relationship was slowly coming to an end. Meeting Tammy sped the end up. The final breakup was not good and it got pretty ugly. Well I hadn’t seen or talked to her in the four years that I had Tammy in my life. During that four years I had thought about getting in touch with her, Tammy and I had even talked about it. But I was to afraid and didn’t do it. On Saturday she was at Twin Lakes for dad’s ceremony. I’m so glad she was there. We were able to spend some time together and I believe that we were able to heal the wounds that we had created four years earlier. I feel that a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and the black spot that was on my soul has been replaced with a new light. I hope that we can now have a long friendship and be able to spend some time together again doing some of the things that we loved to do together.
So, if any of you are to afraid to come to terms with a black spot on your soul, think about my dad, Tammy and me. Before we knew what hit them, it was to late to do anything about it and they were gone. I know that it’s a cliché to say “Live every day like it’s your last” but who knows, it could be your last day. And even worse, it could be the last day of the person who you are holding a grudge against. And then you have to live the rest of your life knowing that there was that ugly black spot on both of your souls. So if you have a situation like that, call them, tell them you’re sorry and then get together with them and give each other a huge hug. Trust me, it works wonders. I found that out on Saturday.
And by the way guys, have I told you lately how much I love having all of you as friends. Thanks for being here for me through all of the years I’ve ran this site, and especially for the last 16 months.
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